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kandy stillwell
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09/29/2007 3:32 AM Alert 
My name is Kandy. I am 26 years old. I am engaged to a great man and have two children with him. Kylie who is 3 and Taylor who was born stillborn in febuary of 2007. We have a dog and a cat. I am a stay at home mom. So my days are filled with parks and taking care of my mommy duties.
I am having a hard time with the lose of Taylor. I have these dreams where people are telling me I am a horrible mother and that I don't deserve to be a mother. I have a hard time being around any babies. I think of her all the time.
When I am alone I cry. HARD!!!
I wish I new how to move from here. How to cope. I feel like I am all alone.
I just want me baby back. It is not right for her to be gone. She should be here with me and her family.Sorry about the rambles.
Melissa Stephens
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10/01/2007 7:05 AM Alert 
Kandy, I used to have a lot of those "bad mother" dreams after my son David's stillbirth. From what I've heard from other women at MEND, it's very common. That doesn't make it better, but at least you can know it's a normal response to the loss of a baby. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Melissa
wife to Rob
mommy to:
David, my 1st angel in heaven - born still October 23, 2003
C.J., my angel on earth - Sept. 29, 2005
Baby Stephens, my 2nd angel in heaven - June 30, 2008
Stanley, my fur-baby - miniature schnauzer, 4 years old
Brenda Aparicio
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10/01/2007 7:44 PM Alert 
I know how you feel dear. I'm going through the same. I lost my baby boy Nicholas a month ago. I was 35 weeks along in my pregnancy. We are blessed with two other children, 9 and 5. Yet, my heart hurts to think of how happy life would've been with my laby boy, my family was to be complete. I planned on spending all my time with him while the kids were at school. I have my hard days...and good days, when I accept what is.

I'll pray for you and you do the same for me.

Brenda
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