Jenni Raughley
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| 07/15/2008 5:51 PM |
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Hi Sharon,
I don't know what tww stands for and I was trying to figure it out but I don't want to guess and be wrong...as for am I dying to find out, the answer is YES definitely...I will say that I walked out of the doc's office and looked at my husband and told him that we were pregnant...I haven't changed my mind...call it a mother's intuition but I really think I am...of course I will feel stupid if I am not but I have a gut feeling about it!
I will keep you posted and I am thinking about you all the time and your progress...how is your husband doing with all of this?
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Jenni Raughley
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| 07/15/2008 5:57 PM |
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Hi Jessica,
That totally makes sense and I know what you mean with the whole period thing...everything about all this crap is sooo hard and no one should have to deal with it but we do and I know we are all doing the best we can...I will be thinking about you...
If you have any questions about IVF, I feel like I am an expert at this point so just ask!
I will keep you posted...thanks for all the thoughts and prayers!
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Sharon G
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| 07/16/2008 4:11 PM |
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Sorry Jenni, but you figured it out. TWW stands for "two week wait". I am sending positve thoughts your way!
My husband worries about me whenever I take a shot. I have been trying to get him to give me a shot now so that he won't have such a hard time with the progesterone shots later. At least now he is watching me do it instead of turning his head.
When do you find out?
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Jenni Raughley
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| 07/16/2008 4:22 PM |
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Hi Sharon,
I figured it was something like that...we find out Monday...I will let you know! Its killing me
What shots are you doing right now? Gonal F and Lupron? Yeah my husband hated seeing me do them but you get real used to it...The progesterone are a pain...they make my rear itch real bad...my mom is a nurse and she gives them to me every night...so pretty lucky there...I will keep praying for you!
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Sharon G
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| 07/16/2008 6:28 PM |
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Wow! You are lucky to have your mom to do them. I'm afraid that he won't be able to do it and I'll have to do them myself.
I should be done with the Lupron tomorrow. I haven't had a problem with giving the subcutaneous shots. They don't even hurt really. I know the intramuscular shots will be a different story.
I can't believe you find out so fast! Although I'm sure it has seemed like a lifetime to you. How many did they transfer (I forgot)? Did you freeze any?
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Jenni Raughley
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| 07/17/2008 7:30 AM |
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Sharon,
you would be surprised...they don't really hurt too bad...its just the progesterone causes like lumps and they itch...it sounds silly but after the shot really try to massage the area so that it doesn't lump up as much...he will be fine...just tell him to do it quick and kind of like a dart...its hard to explain but he will be fine once he gets used to it
we actually froze 5 right away at a stage they call 2PN and then we had 4 that made it to the blastocyst stage (5-6 days) and so we froze them and then we have one left from the last cycle at blast so we have 10 total (5@2PN and 5 @ blast)...although I am not a big fan of the frozen transfer just cause it didn't work for us...doesn't mean it doesn't work for others! |
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Jessica Davis
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| 07/17/2008 10:04 AM |
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Jenni,
I can't wait to hear on Monday. Isn't that funny, how we get so excited for each other. I guess it isn't funny, but I just can understand your excitment. I really want things to work out for you ladies. I have a kinda personal question and you don't have to answer, but I'm just curious. How much does this cost?? I mean my husband and I do pretty good and will do better once I'm out of school, but I'm just curious how this compares to adopting. I would love to get pregnant and give birth to my baby, but I don't know how well my husband would do with the shots. My husband HATES needles and I don't think he would be big into me taking shots and if he had to help I'm pretty sure he wouldn't even consider it because when he sees a needle on TV he about passes out then. So I don't really even know if costs is a big deal then, but I was curious. Like I said don't feel like you have to answer that. I guess I'm just worried that I'm going to have to do that one day.
Well I can't wait for Monday either, I really hope we get to hear some good news!!
Thanks-
Jessica
p.s. I'm learning that the day you get your period do something nice for yourself. It doesn't take the pain away, but it takes your mind off it for a little while and just makes you feel a little bit better.
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Jenni Raughley
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| 07/17/2008 1:07 PM |
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Jessica,
Haha...I know what you mean...I can't wait either and I feel like my positive energy is fading the closer I get to finding out but I am trying to fight the negative demons....its just real hard
As far as cost, no I don't mind answering...but its real different for everyone...it really depends on what your insurance covers...we are lucky enough that our insurance covers all the medication and the regular doctors visits like all the bloodwork and ultrasounds...so out of pocket we have to pay for the procedure, the surgical fee, the anesthesia, and the embryo freezing, so each time we do a fresh IVF cycle it costs roughly $9,000...some places offer help and discounts for paying cash and for repeat procedures...so you really have to talk with the financial person at your doctors office
As far as the needles, I would definitely recommend that your husband not be in the room when you do the shots, the prep shot are small and subcutaneous so they either go in your thigh or belly, but the intramuscular shots go in your hip/butt region and you kinda need someone else to do them,
But you know what, you might not need any of this stuff, you did get pregnant naturally the first time right? That is great and very hopeful that it will happen again...if it does turn out that you need to do fertility treatments, it might just be that you would do and IUI (which used to be called artificial insemination)...I think there may only be one needle with that if I remember correctly...we did 2 of them in the beginning of our treatments...a much easier process and significantly less expensive...that procedure itself only cost us $500... but don't think about any of that...just try to relax if you can and try to enjoy at least one thing each day...sounds hokie and silly but that is what I am trying to do lately and it seems to help a bit...still miss my daughter immensely, but I know that she is happy and would want that for me too...
take care and hang in there!
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Jenni Raughley
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| 07/17/2008 1:13 PM |
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Jessica,
I forgot...you don't ever forget about being a mom because you are a MOM...its just hard to deal with because our babies are not here and visibly to the public we don't look like moms...but we are...and you will never stop thinking about it but soon it will not be plagued with such sorrow...your baby is happy and someday it will get better!
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Jessica Davis
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| 07/18/2008 9:06 AM |
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Thanks for being so open about all of this. I am so new to all of this that it was starting to seem over whelming, but it is really good to know that there are some other options. I really didn't know there different options other than the one that use to be known as artificial insemination. So good to know.
We didn't use any help the first time we got pregnant and I'm really hoping that we don't have to, but I'm starting to realize that we might have to and it wouldn't be the end of the world. I'm starting to think the first one might have been a fluke. So I'm trying to think positive about other alternatives. Even adoption is really an option.
Can't wait until Monday, I'm sure you can't either. Normally I love weekends and don't want them to end, but in your case i'm sure you would rather just skip the weekend and get to Monday. Well try to enjoy the weekend and I can't wait to hear some good news.
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Jessica Davis
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| 07/21/2008 9:42 AM |
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ITS MONDAY!! HAVE YOU FOUND ANYTHING OUT YET!!! I know you probably weren't able to just wake up and know, but I was thinking about ya on Sunday and couldn't wait for today. Hope everything turns out okay!!
Praying for you
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Jenni Raughley
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| 07/21/2008 12:11 PM |
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Hi Jessica,
Unfortunately I did find out around 2 PM EST...it was negative...I dont' know what to do...I keep feeling like my world has ended and like I am not supposed to be a mother...it is the worst feeling in the world and I hate it so much...anyway...sorry for the negativity, just don't know what to do right now...I am so depressed and miserable...I wish that I had the answers as to why this didn't work even though the conditions were optimal...I am just beginning to think that I am never going to have a live baby and that life just really sucks...really struggling with the faith lately too...
Thanks for the thoughts and prayers and again sorry for being so negative.
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Jessica Davis
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| 07/21/2008 12:53 PM |
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Don't feel bad for feeling bad. You deserve to be upset. I am really sorry. Just allow yourself to feel what ever you feel. If you bottle it up or try and change how you feel, it will just make things worse in the long run. As for your faith, we are human and we can't expect ourselves to never be mad, disappointed, or confused with God. We don't know what on earth He is thinking or does the things that he does, but he has some master plan for you and your family. This is probably not helping you at all and I apologize for not being able to say the right things. Just know that I am praying for you and hoping for best for you guys. Don't give up!!!
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Sharon G
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| 07/21/2008 4:30 PM |
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Jenni,
I am so sad to hear about the negative result. I am praying for you big time.
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Jenni Raughley
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| 07/23/2008 7:12 AM |
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Sharon,
Thinking about you...I know your egg retrieval is today...let me know how it goes.
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Jenni Raughley
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| 08/23/2008 4:03 PM |
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Hi ladies,
We are getting ready for the next transfer and I am a mess...We will be doing our frozen embryo transfer the week of labor day. I am going to need some serious prayers cause we are pretty distraught after the last two failed attempts. Our doctors are confident that we will get pregnant again, it is just a matter of the right time I guess. I decided that I am going to try and put this cycle up to God and let him handle it. I was so stressed with the last two and I can't help but wonder if that stress affected the outcome. I guess that I will deal with handle whatever I have to but I am going to try and let God take the driver's seat. I don't know whether I am kidding myself or not but I will definitely give it a valiant effort and do my best not to be too stressed.
Please pray for us...we really need a baby in our arms as do all of you!
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Sharon G
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| 08/24/2008 4:26 AM |
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Jenni,
I am definitely praying for you. One of the most difficult things to do is to truly give your concerns over to God. It is almost impossible for a "control freak" like me. I understand how you feel.
I hope that you can feel a sense of peace during this process. Stress can definitely affect your body's processes.
For some reason I had a sense of peace during my procedure. I knew that I could only do so much and God had to do the rest. I just focused on my part and prayed that the rest would work out.
I also tried to come to terms with the fact that this might not be the right time and accept it. I had also contemplated the idea that we might not have children. I'm not trying to be negative, but it helped me focus on other areas of my life. Of course I wanted it to work, but I didn't want it to consume me either.
Good luck and keep us posted!
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